I'm not sure why I'm here. I just chose this forum for whatever reason. I don't know.

I'm sure you get tons of "I want to commit suicide" threads, so I don't really want to go down that route. But I must say that I really wish I weren't alive. I hate life. I hate it! If ever a person was dealt staggeringly horrific genes/traits, it's me. Both in terms of appearance and personality, I'm just a pathetic mess of a person. I've burned so many bridges, and I've also made my life impossible with bad choices. I have no positivity, and I'll never have any. I absolutely hate life and I want it to end. I hate every single day on this planet. I hate myself, and I hate everyone else too. I have no business being here. I don't want help. I really just want to stop living. I don't have the life force or the desire to battle through this and get better. I don't have any friends to count on, not even the most remote prospects for a relationship, and absolutely no skills or education to earn a living. I just can't stand to be here any longer. I absolutely hate life in every single regard. There's nothing for me in life. I'm not saying this out of depression.

People always say "give it time, it'll get better", and they keep repeating the same platitude, "you never know what will happen. You may become the next billionaire someday." Please, spare me. Nothing good will happen to me. I'm too flawed, and too fucked up. I have no redeeming qualities. The recipe in my genetics and my piss poor traits can only be a recipe for bad.