well I will talk a little bit about my self to let you understand my view, sorry for my English I will try my best to explain my thoughts.
I'm ex-Muslim who group up in religious family in small village of one of the Arabic countries, when I was in school I used to help my family, friends , cousins even my Teachers in the technical staff because I'm good at this area, when they come to me with there problem and ask me to help, some times I mange to solve their problems, after solving their problems I feel by their happens, it was good feeling, after a while I realized the real happiness in helping people, so I decide to make a change in my community since my community straggled with different problems one of them is the Education, I faced different problem when I was studying but I managed to overcome all of the obstacles and be a good student in my university, when I was in the fourth year of my study I get a scholarship to study in Europe for one semester as exchange student, I was really happy with it, when I was there I met new people from different countries who have different religions, when I returned to my home I started to think seriously about my religion, after that I decide to left Islam and live in new city far from my village to get job and improve my skills, but the thing here all the people who know me and respect me don't know that I left Islam and if the know that they well be disappointed and maybe will reject me and don't accept me because the strongly believers, is that easy to hide your thoughts and try to be a different person? to make a change in your community and be happy with them?