I live in a condominium complex with my father, who is in his eighties and in very poor health. Right now his pain is so bad that he can barely function. He spent most of last year in hospitals and rehab clinics. He was brought up,like my mother in strict christian households.

My mother died a horrible death 8 years ago from cancer. On her death bed she praised Jesus. At that moment I became a god hater. I practiced it with joy and spread my hate for it as much as I could.

Since then I have matured, (and calmed down) to embracing atheism. My father now curses god and has thrown out his bible. He said god is the father of pain. He is suffering I know. I am suffering with him. The, "I will pray for you", or, "You are in our prayers", does neither of us any good, but those are people that see him in pain and like many, do not know any better.

To my point. I let my atheism light shine in the neighborhood. Word has spread and we are being victimized by neighbors and people on the condo board. We are treated like leapers. If I speak to someone they say, I can't hear you! A neighbor who just moved in with his wife across the street came over and introduced himself and was very kind. However, Now he cannot hear me either as he gets in his new truck that has Jesus stickers and fish all over it and looks the other way.

These people all fly the american flag proudly, claim to be christians, see and know we are suffering and treat us like garbage. My mistake was thinking I would get any sympathy from any of them. Yes, something wicked this way came, and while they all think it is the evil atheist on the block, I know it is all of them and their wicked views and ways.

I am isolated and feel alone, so I thank you for letting me come here to gripe.

I will be thinking of all of you.