hi bros (sorry for my english )have a big probleme need your help pls so i'm ex muslim but i ask my self so many question when i was a believer back then i used to just not care but now i refuse to leave in illusion because iknow inside all dise is fake but at the same time i can't leave for nothing at all so i'm a angnotist stuck between two roads somethims i have that fealling of being alone a shame on the society because i'm living with them every time i hear them talking about infidels how they are gonna go to hell how much we should hate them i always protected other beliefs i always hated insulting others or doings there bullshit one time i was asked if i would get my self in a suicide bombing for allah i always fight back and argument againt that try to convence them this is not the way and somethoms they just tel me i'm acting like a atheist at the same time i feel guilty to lie to my familly live on there wealth waiting for a occation to leave the country i'm not an asshole the only reason i quite islam is because of values i respect and don't know what to do even in education they refuse to talk about great theories just because they are againt islam ideologi i'm tired always feel to give up and always afraid of a moment when a non muslim (or muslim) would be hurt and i would be force to do something thnaks