Hi, All,

I'm someone in transition and leaning heavily toward atheism.

One thing that continually bothers me is the order of the universe and the question of how matter came to be. I can understand evolution and natural selection, but I can't understand how there's such order and development within the universe. For example, it seems extremely unlikely that I'll be sitting here in a recliner, typing on a computer using hands that evolved and are controlled by electronic impulses in my brain. When I start thinking of all of the things that have had had to occur to lead up to this moment, I just can't understand it.

My atheist boyfriend has said, "In an infinite universe, everything that can happen will happen."

I get stuck on this thought and start creating scenarios like: So a monkey wearing glasses and riding a tricycle with a polkadot scarf around his neck and two yellow birds mating on the top of his head while he rides is possible, so it will happen?

And what about if the universe isn't infinite? Does that change everything?

I hope you can help me understand all of this. Thanks!