Having a lot of problems (emotionally and pyschologically I guess you could say).
Been really low on my self esteem A LOT!!!
I'm sure most of you remember my intro thread New Here and New To Atheism.
Just having a tough time tonight with things....Life problems....Still pissed at a lot of things and trying to let go of what I formerly believed in.
Literally...I have NO ONE to talk to being as it is I am new to Atheism and most people I know would say, "I'm praying for you"....and all that other shit! (excuse my language)....
I lay here crying and feeling lonely......my instincts are still to talk to *gasp*....God!
Then digressing and going, "He's not real".......no one hears you!!!!
I just recently surpassed last week what was mine and my (RIP) twin sisters birthday....and having a lot of trouble coping with some issue's in other area's in my life.
Help...I am trying so damn hard to break away from talking to this imaginary person I used to believe cared and knew my heart when nothing made sense.......I am just so sad and heart broken over some things and trying to figure out how to stop the want/need to pray to something that isn't even real!!!
What do you all do???? I have no real life atheist friends......I am in the "bible belt". This is hard dammit!!!
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Honestly, taking another break here from vacation, but you talk to yourself when you were talking to your god before you were were talking to yourself now the big and empowering difference is now you have the ability to answer your prayers it's not always easy but when you pray to yourself and answer your prayers it is empowering.
Alternatively, you could choose to pray to energy, the earth, all of existence anything you want to really. Or, like George Carlin, My favorite comedian, you could pray to Joe Pesci. According to George he got the about same amount of prayers answered as when he prayed to God while praying to Joe Pesci. here is a link with some of Carlin's comedy routine you may find funny or offensive depending on taste. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPOfurmrjxo
Just reread what I wrote earlier and realize I made a few mistakes, I forgot a lot of punctuation, I made a mess of the first part . so here it goes again.
Honestly, taking another break here from vacation, but when you talked to yourself before while you were talking to your god you were talking to yourself. Now the big and empowering difference is you have the ability to answer your prayers it's not always easy but when you pray to yourself and answer your prayers it is empowering.
PS. When you spoke with your god in the past I am sure you imagined it before having doubts to be a superior being. When you speak with yourself you should also imagine your self you are talking to to be a superior and best possible version of yourself kind of like a guide to being. Good luck and remember when you want to talk to other atheist you always have the hub.
@miss_understood I find talking on the forums to help. I would also suggest looking into "grief beyond belief" a group for atheists who are dealing with the loss of a loved one, just talking to understanding people was very helpful when my younger sister died.
I would also say don't be afraid to seek help for depression if you feel you fall into the category; I find my medication very helpful to just feel normal.
I also found podcasts to be comforting; some of my favorites are: the thinking atheist, cognitive dissonance, dogma debate, imaginary friend show, and the skeptics guid to the universe.
I also enjoyed watching Christopher Hitchens or clips from "The atheist experience" on YouTube.
It can all make you're head spin a bit at first, but it was well worth it for me.
Miss, I wish more than anything I could reach out with a giant mama hug for you right now.
Id like to refer you to utubes amazing atheist hes funny and occasionally insightful. When youve hd enough of him head to Jaclyn glenn shes an ex christian more serious very insightful and damn gorgeous (never hurts lol).
Im also on anti depression meds i wonder how many atheists have to take them? Im on mine basically because lifes shit and its my fault. I was suffering from body dis morphia and managed to trick the doctors into cutting off my foot.
Hey, Miss, checking in to see how you're doing. Have been thinking about you. Please feel free to reach out to me if you need an ear.
Miss, one thing that I really like to do is write letters (kind of like a journal of feelings to some person that will never see it.). Usually I write what I would want them to know, but what I can't tell them either because they are dead or because telling them would have more negative than positive effects. Now, even though no one hears you, it is good to tell even an imaginary person about your troubles, as this keeps you from feeling alone and allows you to organize your thoughts. I struggled with depression for quite a while and this is what I would do. However, it is also helpful if you can do something productive to take your mind off of your troubles. For example, if you like reading, sewing, etc. What are your interests?
It is hard to believe, but even in the bible belt, you are not alone. I felt the same way for years until I found the freethought community around Knoxville, TN of all places. I've since learned of Atheist groups in most southern states. Try googleing freethought, Atheist, Skeptic , humanist, or non belief in your location. You can also go to meetup.com for your area. There maybe a skeptic / atheist/ humanist type meetup group in your area. We have a group here named Atheist Society of Knoxville that was started 12 years ago and now lists over 400 members, so we are around, and most of us have been through something similar to what you are going through. It is never easy, but reach out, there are others out here and we want to help. I have even found several people at ASK events that I had known for years, but we never knew we were both Atheists.
Im thinking there are too many atheist groups now and its time to unite them into an organised atheist support network.
It may not mean much, but I'm always open to chat.
In the same boat. The realization that everything you were taught is wrong is unbearable at times.
My dad was a preacher.